Well folks here's the deal. Over the past three years I have witnessed a steady shift in myself. My desire to continue in the world of advertising (at least in the corporate sense) has continued to wane, while a new fire has been kindled within me. I have become increasingly passionate about existential/metaphysical/theological questions and ponderings. My mind has been turned on and I can't seem to find the off button. A fair amount of this can be attributed to the bright people I talk with on this very blog. I think it will be a couple years yet before I'm able to decide whether to thank you or curse your name for this influence. ;-)
That said, I've made two drastic shifts in direction these last two weeks. Firstly, I applied and was accepted into a Masters program at Bethel Seminary in St. Paul. (No, I'm not looking to become a pastor. This is a different sort of degree.) Starting this month I will begin working towards my M.A. in "Christian Thought". In their own words:
"Those looking for a systemic understanding of the Christian worldview may choose the Master of Arts in Christian Thought. The heart of this degree program is significant work in philosophy of religion. The program integrates this with related study in theology and Bible to enhance the study of philosophy. The class work in this program addresses worldview issues from a distinctively Christian point of view. It will include opportunities to study both with resident faculty and with outstanding visiting scholars."
From what I've heard of people who are in this program, it's basically a rigorous version of this blog with a fancy degree awarded upon completion. (an obvious understatement) I'm really fired up!
The second major life change came yesterday when I realized that I simply cannot, with any integrity, continue to my profession in an agency setting. The mental demands placed upon me here, combined with the equally rigorous thought life I am about to embark on simply do not add up to a good professional setting. It is not fair to my employers to be so mentally divided when they are counting on me to deliver. As of yesterday, I have submitted my resignation. I agreed to stay on until they have found a replacement, then I'm outta here.
So the question hangs... What now?
At the moment I'm fluid. Ideally, I'm hoping to find a part time job for stability purposes, then ramp up my seat business. This move would give me the flexibility I need for my studies/family life as well as the stability of a steady income. I have a couple options on the table already for part-time work. One of which would involve torching apart train wrecks at a local scrap yard! Honestly, that sounds quite appealing when taken in context of where I'm at. At the moment, though, I don't know what I'm going to do. I have a couple weeks yet to figure it out.
For you praying types out there, please feel free to bring my situation before our Father. For the non-believing folk, any words of encouragement would be appreciated. This is scary, crazy and wonderfully exciting all at once. I can hardly wait to see what lies ahead.